If I Let You Go

Day after day 
Time passed away 
And I just can't get you off my mind.

There is this one man whom I like until to this day. Sometimes, I ask myself either I 'like' or I 'love' him. I couldn't answer. And sometimes I ask myself, why do I like him so much? I tried to give up but I couldn't. Not even an answer. Am I like him for no reason? 

I hear myself say,
Why can't this feeling just fade away 

To this man, whom I love. 
I still, still don't have courage to stand in front of you telling that 'I am here for you. I want to be with you. Your happiness, your sadness I want it to be mine too.'
For some reason, I have faith that God has planned extremely beautiful journey for us. 

I am shy to ask, I am proud to lose. 
But sooner or later I gotta choose.
And once again I'm thinking the about
Taking the easy way out

To this man whom I love, 
Whatever your decision is later, my respect is yours. Your happiness is mine. I am ready to let you go because I know, love is not destined to be pressured but to be cherished. 

You speak to my heart
Its such a shame we are worlds apart

~2019, July. 











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