Monolog #24 - perang dalam

Perang dalam
Hati berkata-kata
Ada yang membentak
Ada juga yang lembut memujuk
Badan jadi lemah
Penat
Hilang mood
Jadi mahu bersendiri
Datang orang yang tidak mahu memahami
Marah2
Bising
Jadi hilang senyum
Bibir tiada daya untuk ukir senyuman
Aku hormat dia
Mungkin hormat aku masih belum cukup untuk dia
Aku penat
Buat ku fikir juga
Dia pun penat
Tapi kenapa
Kenapa aku selalu dahulukan orang lain sebelum aku sendiri
At the end
Aku rasa orang pijak aku balik
Naive sangat ke aku ni
Tuhan, aku keliru
Aku rindukanMu.

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