Monolog #13 - Dia KABUR, Aku BUTA



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"Kau tahu, aku sentiasa mahu lupakan. Jadi aku tinggalkan. Tapi tidak, ada daya yang menarik aku kebelakang. Hati yang mahu menuju ke Tuhan melawan arus. Aku tersepit."

"Inilah ujian."


Ah kau! 
ketika aku terhegeh-hegeh peduli
Sedikitpun kau tak sedari
Sakit tak terperi aku ketepi
Entahlah, bodoh mungkin --
aku menunggu kau kini

Tuhan! maafkan aku
lemah itu datang tiba
tiapkali kau menduga
apalah bertuahnya dia
ada aku yang terhegeh-hegeh--
menanti

K A B U R, dia tidak pernah sedari
B U T A, aku yang ternanti-nanti.

--Kadang,
jiwa memberontak. Jadi jelek.

~kitto.

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